I have a new project over  on youtube that’s called #braindump. It’s my almost daily vlog of anything that spews out of my brain and recorded by the the camera (yes it is edited, slightly, mainly to take out stuff like coughing and extraneous noises if I’m recording outside).

I’m really enjoying the process. I record, edit, and upload all in the same day. It’s been a bit time consuming as I hone the process  But apparently I’ve been “inspiring” some friends. I take a little comfort in that knowledge. I’ll probably switch to weekly vlogs after the first month. Trying to do this every day has been very draining on my mental and creative resources.

The model is based on the Morning pages from The Artist’s Way. A model created by Julie Cameron for blocked artists to become unblocked and free to become productive in their  creativity. It’s been popular for many, many years. I’ve gone through the book twice now and find that it does open me up, when I use the tools. But there’s a difference in writing morning pages and publishing a brain dump. Morning pages aren’t meant to be seen by any one. They are yours and yours alone. Vlogging is a thing Millienals do, they are extremely transparent about their lives on social media, and very creative with how they present their content.

I’m not worried about how I present the content. I’m having a conversation with the internet about my creative process, being genderqueer in a heteronormative society, and my relationship. These seem to be the topics. As more come up, I’ll let you know.

It’s rather interesting exposing myself in this manner. I recently announced to the entire internet that I am genderqueer. I was scared to “come out” because I have a business to run, I’m pretty popular in the food blogging world,  and, I was scared I wouldn’t be able to get clients if my name was attached to something that is seen as different. Something out of the ordinary. Oh My Gosh, I’m queer!

I’ve discovered that it hasn’t been as scary as I thought it would be. People are encouraging me, and cheering me on. The younger folks that I know are watching the videos. I’m getting feedback, slowly. So far I haven’t gotten any hate mail. Lets hope it stays that way.

Let me know what you think about these videos and this process. If you have anything you are vlogging about feel free to share in the comments. I’m excited about joining this community, and adding my voice to the growing online genderqueer community.

Enjoy the videos. More will be added as they are created. Welcome to my #braindump!